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Closed Doors

November 10, 2008

Closed Doors

Look at me and tell me

Am I everything you ever wanted?

Am I the daughter you wanted me to be?

Am I everything you hoped for?

I try to do everything you want me to

But it’s just not me

I want to make you proud

But this isn’t what I want to be

In your eyes

I’m wasting time

Are you ashamed of me?

And what I want to do in life?

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

But I can’t change who I am

I just want to be myself

But you don’t understand

Why can’t I just live my life?

I don’t want to live yours

And every time I talk to you

You just close the open doors

I try not to argue

Cause I don’t want you to hate me

But that’s all we do

You just don’t get me

I would give anything

For just one day

For us not to fight

For things to be less dim and grey

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

But I can’t change who I am

I just want to be myself

But you don’t understand

Why can’t I just live my life?

I don’t want to live yours

And every time I talk to you

You just close the open doors

Please don’t turn your back on me

Please don’t give up

I just want you to understand

That being you is not what I want

I know I’m not good enough

But I just want one last try

Because when you’re disappointed

I can’t pretend that I’m all right

I’m sorry I’m not perfect

But I can’t change who I am

I just want to be myself

But you don’t understand

Why can’t I just live my life?

I don’t want to live yours

And every time I talk to you

You just close my open doors

Be you!!!!!

Chained down locked up

You had everything but it wasn’t enough

You feel like no one knows you

Or what you’re going through

So you sat there and cried

And let life pass you by

What you done understand is

You get in life what you give

So stop moping around and start to live

Don’t let people make decisions for you

Don’t let them tell you what to do

You have your own mind

You know what is right

So get up and go out

Have some fun and laugh out loud!

Fasting!

 Today was the first day for fasting. No food from when the sun comes up till the sun goes down. It wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be it was actually kind of fun. So if I  don’t eat at school don’t think I’m anorexic or anything. Yup, just fasting….

Just another unfinised song……….actually it’s more like a really long poem

i dont write music though that’s someone else’s job..

walk away just leave me alone

everything is socomplicated so just let me go

you had your sat there watching me fall

so now go back home

forget about me i’ll be fine

dont worry about this heart of mine

leave me alone i dont want to see your face  anymore

i just want to see you walk out that door

i dont want to hear you say you’re sorry

i dont want to hear that  your sad

i dontwant to hear anything form you again

cause that was you last chance

now you’re gone life is moving on so fast

you’re a could’ve been, should’ve been

but now you’re my past

this wasnt going to work anyway

so there really is nothing you could say

forget about me i’ll be fine

dont worry about this heart of mine

leave me alone i dont want to see your face  anymore

i just want to see you walk out that door

i dont want to hear you say you’re sorry

i dont want to hear that  your sad

i dontwant to hear anything form you again

cause that was you last chance